world's at large

to want to love…

would take a journey of the seven seas,

would make the sky awake with lightning,

would cause pigs to fly….

every morbid, atrocious occurrence to occur. 

To want to love would render me useless,

would require I need assisted care,

would tighten that hole in my chest even tighter,

would only make life a living hell…

every dark creature on this earth would be of comfort.

To want to love would take the utmost effort,

would take away my independence,

would cause my tear ducts to overflow,

would only be the craziest idea…

every speck of panic would arise.

To want to love would be ludicrous

would be nauseating,

would be ghastly and appalling,

wouldn’t be…right.

But to want to love couldn’t be….so bad.