I have a lot of songs I would LOVE to do karaoke with. But I have a top 5:
1. Bloodhound Gang-‘The Bad Touch (Discovery Channel)’
2. Jimmy Eats World-‘Sweetness’
3. Third Eye Blind-‘Jumper’
4. Eiffel 65-‘Blue’
5. Madonna-‘Like a Prayer’
:)
If this becomes a poster. I’m putting it above my head.
my favorite songs, done by my favorite artists. There are quite a few songs on my itunes that I play repeatedly, and there are quite a few artists on my itunes that I absolutely adore above others. So when those two things meet, and scramble…I’m in a musical heaven!
For instance:
I love Sam Sparro’s ‘Black and Gold’ and I love Katy Perry, I also love MGMT’s ‘Electric Feel’ and ‘Kids’ and The Kooks! What does that jumble sentence mean? Well Katy Perry covered ‘Black and Gold’ and ‘Electric Feel’, and they sound absolutely amazing. While The Kooks covered ‘Kids’, which I took for the original version when I heard it.
That’s just only about 3 songs, with 4 different artists. I won’t delve into deets, but my love for music just expands when I can find a great cover, done by a great artist. :)
“I’ll rise above my sorrow. Let’s start today, tomorrow.” — Youth Group ‘Start today tomorrow’
I feel like everyone has this secret agenda in every little thing they do. I swear, every word released from someone’s lips is a lie. I wish I could look at someone and say they’re genuine in what they’re saying, but after years of hearing empty promises and being unfulfilled….trust doesn’t come easily.
I want to trust. I want to feel like I can rely on a person solely based on their words. But the truth of the matter is…I don’t. I can’t.
My circle stays tight. The grip of it not expanding beyond the width of my skinny, pinky finger. It’s that tight. Because I only trust the little in my very tight circle, and only them. I don’t invite anyone else in.
I know everyone had people let them down before, so they’re all “oh i’ve been hurt, i can’t trust anyone, blah blah blah” I understand that’s probably how this post will look to people. But I don’t care. I’m so serious in how I feel. Because my feelings are the only things I’m ever sure of.
Once you’ve wronged me. You’ve wronged me. I don’t forgive lightly. But I don’t hold grudges either. I won’t always scowl at a person who’s hurt me. But I’m not going to act flowers and candy whenever I’m around that person. They’ll know I don’t trust them in my demeanor. They’ll know that I don’t believe a thing they say. They’ll know.
I’m ranting. It’s 3 in the morning and I can’t sleep. I don’t have pen and paper on hand at the moment, and I guess I wanted a little outlet for the moment. Here it is.
I’m emotionally damaged, and I don’t trust about 95% of the people in my life. But I’m trying. I’m trying to heal. I’m trying to change. Because I don’t want to be like this forever. I want to meet someone, I want to fall in love, I want to get married, I want to have a wedding with lots of people who I love and who love me back. I want that so badly. In order to get there, I have to stop feeling sorry for myself. I have to get over the issues I have within myself. It all starts with me.
‘I believe in it’ Isabelle Antena